I Hope I Make You Proud – The Thoughts of A Physician Mother in the Time of COVID-19

To my children,
I dreamt of being a doctor since I was young.
“I want to help people” I said.
But never did I imagine working during a pandemic. A pandemic that would reach our shores, our state, our town, our hospital.
I never imagined I would pause before entering the hospital, unsure of what await inside, or worse, acutely aware.
The calling perseveres — despite the risk, despite the fear, despite the unknown. To be there for my patients, driven by my oath.

I dreamt of being a mom since I was young.
“I want kids” I said, long before I met Dad.
But never did I imagine raising my children during a pandemic. Homeschooling. Explaining what’s going on in the gentlest of terms. Entertaining and nurturing three who are blissfully unaware of what haunts the streets.  
The calling perseveres — fulfilling as ever. To be there for you, my greatest blessings, driven by love.

A once in a lifetime circumstance, allowing the opportunity to shine bright in both roles, as new responsibilities I never imagined are thrust upon me. I will not shy away.

Being a mother has made me a better doctor and I have you to thank for that. I am forever humbled by the privilege to serve in both roles. Honored to be a doctor. Blessed to be your mama. I hope I make you proud as both.

Love,
Mom